today i went to see a movie. not just any movie "me, you and everyone we know". i wasn't planning on buying any movie food. but in order to use my debit card i had to spend ten dollars and the ticket was only six. so i splurged on a wild cherry pepsi and small popcorn. the same treat heidi said to buy if i went to the excorism of emily rose. it just sounded so damn good. but i didn't think i could sit through such a demonic movie. i am soo pure after all. the sky was magnificent today. it felt like i was being swallowed. the way the clouds caused canyons. i met a very nice boy today who i hope i can be friends with once school starts. i am not attracted to him but i dont really feel like being attracted to anyone right now. its very quite today. even the psu footbal game hasn't brought much comotion. i hope it stays soft. the cars sound like waves. the bitter end pub has some asshole band playing tonight. its not fair i can hear their shitty music but can't even go get drunk and watch it. still one beer in the fridge, left from my father. i am such a light weight i bet it will get me tipsey. once in tenth grade, biology, heidi and ed were discussing getting stoned by yourself and how it was fun. i butted in with "i get drunk by myself sometimes." heidi replied almost in unison with ed "that's not cool."

toast to being not cool.